Beneath these debris

if you think you’re too cool to hang out with me, so be it. i’ll find other “less cool” people to hang out with.

maybe i’ll learn something, maybe i will not.

p.s: mom says, we're moving. when? i have no freakin idea.

movie marathon with nadear and aza. they’ve been longing to watch sister’s keeper and so we did. aza wept throughout the whole movie! (like i did when i watched it the first time). nad? well. she didn’t cry as much. after sister’s keeper, we watched new moon (again). and then three episodes of friends.

watching my girls cry+ edward + jacob + roti telor(which i made myself) + FRIENDS = AWESOME!

i can’t wait for tomorrow. i’ll sleep early tonight. must make good first impression. i hope nothing goes wrong. wish me luck okay! *fingers crossed*

lastly, i miss AA.

I’M NOT CHUCK BASS WITHOUT YOU.

i got a new job doing data entry. and i start tomorrow.

this sucks, i can’t go out. i woke up in the middle of the night crying to my mom. i was literally shaking. i felt cold but my temperature was off the roof. (exaggerating aye?)  hahaha. but it was. i covered myself with 3 layers of blanket but i felt cold still. i felt my eyes burning.

i called AA at 5 am complaining to him. hahaha! he didn’t put down the phone until i fell asleep. how sweet. hehe

so, if you guys don’t already know, i patched things up with AA. but what’s new right? hahaha. we’ve been on and off for five years.

i still have to tell nad this bizarre secret. because i’m not allowed to tell anyone else. faster meet can? i miss you.

UT tomorrow. but i don’t feel like studying.

well, i tried saving it. and believe me when i said i fought for it.but nothing is ever enough. typical human beings always wanting what they don’t already have.

maybe i was too complacent. maybe i did push you too far. but so what??let’s just see it this way, if the tables were turned and you made the mistake, how would this have played out?

talk about being a hypocrite.

I don’t know what I’ve done
Or if I like what I’ve begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it’s all or none

There were sounds in my head
Little voices whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh and I found myself listening

‘Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don’t know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
‘Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

See I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you ain’t leaving without a fight
And I think I am just as torn inside

And I won’t be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you
This is what I have to do